My Life Before Doctor Who and After Doctor Who

My reaction to Paul's Blog on Eat, Pray, Love and Going the Distance has changed since Doctor Who has entered my life.

I guess I have been in a rather volatile place in my life emotionally these last couple of months, no years. I have felt as though there is something more to life yet not sure how to go about finding it. I am a spiritual person, so I pray and go to church each week offering my prayers at the feet of Jesus and I discuss my dilemma's with the spiritual guru's in my life. But I felt hopeless and helpless. Like there was not a way for me to break through the monotony of the life I have fallen into. When I saw Eat, Pray, Love I cried all the way home because I wanted a spiritual awakening like the main character but I most certainly didn't want to divorce my amazing husband (um...not a chance!). I could not see how it was possible to have a spiritual awakening while bringing someone I love so much along on the journey (a journey that he didn't want to or need to take). I was crushed after this movie. Paul's suggestions on his blog are helpful and somewhat beneficial however, they really don't suite me. First, of all some of them I already do without great breakthroughs and second, I'm just not that person. So, I have to find my journey my own way. That's when I found the Doctor...


We then saw the movie Going the Distance. I kinda liked it because life is just that messy and crazy. Though I wouldn't know how to hold a bong if it was handed to me, and wouldn't suggest it to anyone else either, I was able to see the messiness of everyday people in this movie. People just falling into the life that was handed to them. My life was extremely messy at the time I saw this movie. It was a mess that I had made. Now if I were to explain the issues many of you would say, "that's it?" and chuckle. As I do now looking back on it, post Doctor. But isn't that they way when we are emotionally into life, over our head and focusing on those things that rile us up? It's so in our face that we don't realize how small we are and we give up on the important things in life. I only saw the messiness in life before I met the Doctor.

So, who is this Doctor? As he introduces himself in one episode:  "I'm The Doctor. I'm a Time Lord. I'm from the planet Gallifrey in the constellation of Kasterborous. I'm 903 years old, and I'm the man who's gonna save your lives and all six billion people on the planet below... You got a problem with that?" And that's what he does in every episode, he saves the universe using no gun, only his words and  a trusty sonic screwdriver. This character has changed my outlook on life. I'm not completely sure how but I came to this realization last weekend when I found myself giddy as a school girl while looking at Doctor Who paraphernalia at a store called Alien Entertainment that had an amazing Doctor Who section (and any other kind of geeked out memorabilia you can think of). I giggled uncontrollably when I bought my very first Dalek (the ultimate bad guy android who scares the world with a plunger and an egg beater for arms).

So, what is it about this Doctor that has me smiling for no reason? Because I'm worth it!

That's right. He saves the "stupid" human race time after time because there is goodness in us. People walk through this world thinking that they just have to get by to the next day, next week, month or year or whatever. The Doctor sees amazing potential in the human race and through the course of the Doctor Who marathon I have undertaken I can now say that I see that potential too. It is HUGE! We need people to support us and defend us toward that greatness. I can do that. I have been given a great gift to help the world around me. Before the Doctor I was just going through the motions to get me out of my current mess.  I knew that I needed to be certified to become a Life Coach. So, I took the classes and did the work just to check it off the list. But now I understand! Now I am motivated! Now the human race better watch out because he has made me a better person.

Yes, this is a spiritual journey for me. The Doctor is an embodiment of Jesus Christ himself to me. He brings down the bad guys not with a gun but with his words. He energizes people through his actions and throughout time and space. He is so actively present in his life that he acts within every moment to share something amazing with those around him. He loves his companions so deeply and cherishes their time together. He remembers the names of everyone he meets and calls them by name. He brings out the best in them in the most difficult situations. He is The Christ! He's my Christ!

I have finally learned to love The Christ through my journey with Doctor Who. I know I'm a nerd. I own it.

My favorite quote so far is:
"Oh, you are beautiful! No really, you are, you're gorgeous! Space-age clockwork, I love it, I've got chills! Listen, I mean this from the heart- and by the way, count those- it would be a crime, it would be an act of vandalism to disassemble you. But that won't stop me."

The first reason is the fasination and respect in the voice of  The Doctor when he says it. He is so aware of the uniqueness of what he is looking at and how rare it is. I heard The Christ say this to me. It is now the ring tone for when my husband calls me. It reminds me that I am beautiful and unique.

The second reason I love this quote is that even though what The Doctor sees fascinates him greatly. He will stop the evil in it's tracks. He will not be distracted from the task at hand by its beauty and rarity. Neither is The Christ and now neither am I!

My life before The Doctor was messy. cloudy and quite dull. My life with The Doctor is the here and now it is focusing on what is important and energizing to those around me. My life with The Doctor, with The Christ, is changing the world because the human race is worth it. You are worth it!

Now, Allonz-y!